Angel Sighting

I think I saw an angel today,

for I was so enamored,

so enthralled by that hair and that smile,

so taken by.

So my question lies all the same –

If I saw an angel, why does my chest remain

in a state of pain

and guilt and shame,

that I may not measure up to them?

That angel and the band,

the strums of their hands,

the notes in their voices

make me wonder if I had more choices.

Perhaps it’s that thought

that love doesn’t beget

one such shame.

In this thought, I remain,

that when beauty begets pain

one must stray away

and look for that spark

that fills one

and doesn’t become

a case of one and done.

So I steel myself once more –

Any angel isn’t yours,

your angel is not lost,

your one will come in time

and then you will feel fine

with yourself

even in the presence of endearment.

there will be no association

with damnation,

no feeling of lack

in your body or your klatch.

With your angel, there is

eternal bliss

and satisfaction,

excitement without a constant

need for adrenaline pulses.

Just calm and peace,

that’s what it should be

and it shall be in time.

You are young, divine.